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Monday, January 09, 2006

Kiss kiss.

Been awhile since i seriously blogged,ey?
Been busy lazing arn in bed,suppering at odd hours and just being bored to death.
Well my life's been pretty much boring since the Os have been over,
im always BROKE,ok not ALWAYS but yeah well.
Im always clubbing,got to cut down on that,im always sleeping.And always
missing people.Im glad i got to catch up with Nisha recently,yet to see Amar since she's been to london and all.She's like the only soul having fun seriously.

Ive yet to get a job,my only source of income is tutoring wxsie,humans that is.
I suck at mostly everything else.Im glad least in that way im getting paid.
The ex is back,right.I dont even want to go in depth of that issue,cos it only annoys me.
Well everything else basically sucks for me,i just cant wait to go for a hol,so anyone free? lemme know yeaaa !

my beautiful puzzle.9:27 PM

Friday, December 02, 2005

my beautiful puzzle.7:19 PM

Donchaaaa`!

I need a job like badlyy!! With all the endless partying ive been attmepting to do and the late
night supperings,ive like noo more cashhh! And mom's already starting to naggg,arghh but i cant possibly sitting home doing nothing rytee? Clearing my mind off stuff and working on the futureeee! Im glad Suren's at least mailing properly w/o anyy harsh words and stuff,so that's a green light.And like my mom and shaf are like positivee we'l get back together. hellooo?? Ever thought abt the mom-in-law from hell? Hahhaha ohh well,mommy's bdae is on monday and i have no moneyy to get her ANYTHIGN. Devastating i tell you.

Anyways,im too tired to say anythingg so i'l blog laters !

my beautiful puzzle.7:11 PM

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Grad night !

So with grad night over and one withh,im offcially an ex pl lite.
Hahahha,ohhhh the day was good i swear.
Filled with fun,laughter and my sch mates.
I nvr realised how much i missed all of emmm,they're all so heavenly.
All of em looked beautiful in their very own way.
Mr Ferng was actually so "on" about snapping picsss siallll!
Hahhaha,met elf and the girls soon after.Shaf had to go back cos she had schh and brin was tiredd,so i was stuck with elf,went for supperr and off i came back.
As much as i wished we booked a hotel room and partied,we were all too tired walking in our new heels/pumpss/slippers?? Hahhaha ooohhh well,im off to crashhh! Got to spend some time with the lil cousins tmrrr.

my beautiful puzzle.2:17 AM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

my beautiful puzzle.3:22 AM

So much for complications and friends.

It really hasnt been easy for me,yes the exams are over and done with
but ive been hearing people say stuff and going on and on
about how fucked i am and the way i handle myself and stuff.
Like seriously how the fuck does anything i do or say concern you people?
No way in heaven or hell should i or will i give a damn but its hurting
to see people judge you and ruin everything you have or want.

Stuff had to die with Suren because of all this crap and while
im over this whole crap,i hear new stuff coming from various different people,
looks like its hard to trust anyone.And since all of that is already enough to handle ive to worry about the way i feel towards people.
Im trying to ignore watever that's been happening and trying to push my feelings away.
Argh when will things take a turn?

In the pouring rain;i was waiting like a fool.

my beautiful puzzle.3:14 AM

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Its overrrrrrrr.

And so its been ages since i updated my blog.
Loadsa sheit have happened and i dont even want to bother
going in depth.
Im just in a fucked state,but i dont really care abt anyone or anyone.
Friends,no comments!

And so with all the papers almost over,
its tym for endless partying,getting a job andd shoppingg!!!!
So much excitement.
Ive been waiting,waiting so long to get out of high sch and i finally have!
WHAHAH.
Grad night's coming up soon,hair to be done.
Clothes to be boughttt,ahh i dont even know where to startttt.
Till the next updatee,do miss me!

my beautiful puzzle.4:18 PM

Monday, October 24, 2005

Granny dearest;love.

To get my mind off things,i stayed over at Charlie's a week ago.
I thought i was happy,when my brother had to call,granny just left us.
No complications,she just stopped breathing.
I think it's unfair,she still had so much to enjoy before she could have gone.
I miss her dearly,with all that has been happening to me,this was the last thing i needed,
but i guess we cant stop death.
Been staying over at her place for a week with the cousin,
her death has def brought the entire family together,
i know she's watching over all of us,with her blessing i hope to pull through.

Things with Suren and me,its not going anywhere.
So he calls and wants the best for us,but i just want a break from all of this.
Its better this way,

Missed my bed for the past week,got home to have a good rest.
Sigh,2 wks away.
O lvs that is,bless!

my beautiful puzzle.12:45 PM

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Since you've been gone

What i thought was good,actually wasnt. Its funny how things become.
Parents being the problem,misunderstanding and the best part of it all
it wasnt even about us having problems.
I chose my mom's feelings over you,im sorry it has to end this way,
i love you and thank you for all that you've done/said.

There you have it,the long wait gone wrong.

my beautiful puzzle.3:36 PM